As said I wanted to pen (process?!) some thoughts on writing erotica. Porn and erotica are meant to arouse.I like the idea of my erotic writing being arousing, but if I am being honest I have to admit to a certain lack of logic. Not sure if it's a female thing, generational, specific or general - but although I like the idea that my stuff might turn somebody on, I feel a little strange about them being used directly as masturbatory fodder - Especially by men. I know it is illogical.

I have been told by men and women that they enjoy my writing sexually. And I enjoy others' writing and pictures sexually too. For me however, there is a separation. I love reading and viewing spanking stuff and the feeling of arousal in a delayed gratification way. It's nice to look, read and think and then replay... So for me there is a separation - erotica/porn as appetiser or foreplay rather than main course or orgasmic activity.

So if my writing excites you great, but I'd rather not think about where that may lead. Like I said - illogical - and I don't know whether others who produce erotica or porn feel the same.

Before I met my partner I hung around spanking site and viewed pics as outlet for sexuality and in early days the eroticism was mind-blowing. perhaps as a spanko it was like a second adolescence - like discovering sex for the first time and there is suddenly all this material to which I had access. I like the idea that my stuff can bring others similar pleasure.

I am also aware that the idea of a woman writing this stuff intensifies the eroticism for men reading it and this has been spelt out to me on ocassion in no uncertain terms. I would be stupid not to realise that a fictional version of me is always the 'star' in the eye and/or imagination of the reader. And of course the first person fiction particularly about 'Suzee' intensifies this. And playful discussion about buying a whip or similar and serious stuff about spanking cannot be honestly dismissed as neutral. not when I still know how exciting it is to know others 'do it' or fantasise about it too.

So as long as I know these things and write these things I am part of the erotica/porn continuum. I'd like to think ther's a line between erotica and porn or good and bad porn (depending on one's definitions) and I'd like to be at my chosen end (as it were). But these things (as others have said) are subjective and so for me I suppose 'real porn' is still the stuff I don't like.