Thought I'd have a little blog about spanking...

Despite a certain self-consciousness and being on the big side, I did wonder if the reality of spanking and caning would match the vague movies in my head.
Viewing the reddening and cane marks is incredibly sexy. I like seeing the result of what is done to me and it is sort of entering 'his' headspace, because it is what he sees.

Since these occasional viewings we've moved on to me sometimes watching the actual action. I have a full-length mirror in the bedroom and moving it and a chair over which I bend has the desired effect. There is also a windowsill at an interesting height for such ministrations as well.

I love seeing and the idea of seeing. I watch what happens to me and I watch what he does and/or watch his face. And I look away to concentrate on just the feeling of the slap, spank or cut of the cane. And then I look once more.

I've not yet used mirrors in my fiction. I shall have to think of suitable scenario...

Further to my dialogue, with friends, this is the 'Suzee feminist manifesto'
http://suzeemoon.blog.co.uk/2007/02/28/reclaiming_the_f_word~1824761

This is what underpins my passion for equality. It was written by someone who was seen as a radical feminist, but this makes a lot of sense to me.

Russ is most famous as a writer of SF, especially as the writer of 'The Female man'. She wrote the following on Bad Faith.

To act in a way that is both sexist and racist; to maintain one's class privilege; it is only necessary to act in the customary, ordinary, usual, even polite manner. Nonetheless I doubt that any of us who does so is totally without the knowledge that something is wrong. To slide into decisions without allowing oneself to realise that one's making any; to feel dimly that one is enjoying advantages without trying to become clearly aware of what those advantages are (and who hasn't got them); to accept mystifications because they're customary and comfortable; cooking one's mental books to congratulate oneself on traditional behaviour as if it were actively moral behaviour; to know that one doesn't know; to prefer not to know; to defend one's status as already knowing with half-sincere, half-selfish passion as "objectivity" - This great, fuzzy area of human ingenuity is what Jean Paul Sartre calls bad faith. When spelled out the techniques used to maintain bad faith look morally atrocious and appallingly silly. That is because they are morally atrocious and appallingly silly. But this only shows when one spells them out, i.e. becomes aware of them. Hence this one effort among many to do just that.

Russ, J (1984) How To Suppress Women's Writing, London: The Women's Press